As some of you are aware, I’ve been riding the Struggle Bus for quite awhile now. The damnedest thing is that I don’t remember ever getting on it, but not long ago I looked around me and thought ~ what the fuck! Am I actually on THE STRUGGLE BUS?! NAW, IT COULDN’T BE!
Then looking out the window I realized something else — that while I’ve been on the struggle bus, I somehow entered The State of Denial.
So, yeah. Apparently, I’ve been living in the State of Denial, zooming around it all day long on the struggle bus — not sure where I’m going but the road ahead continues to look rocky!
Anyway, David and I have had a few conversations about this. I’ve also had a conversation or two with my therapist. I’ve written and purged and tried to embrace the fucking Serenity Prayer and so far, I’m still in a very weird place/state in my life. On a bus. That struggles down a rocky road. This is not the life or vacation that my dreams are made of. This is survival-mode from hell.
So at this point, I think I need to take a break while I attempt to get my shit together. What that means is — I need to get off the damned Struggle Bus and hitchhike, walk, crawl (if necessary) my way out of this weird-ass state; which means I’ll be gone for awhile. I’m not physically going anywhere, btw. I’m only going away from being online for awhile. Thanks for asking.
So, yeah. That’s what this post is about. It’s my way of saying that I’m taking a break until June 1 while I try and figure a few things out and get back to a better place. That includes social media as well, so y’all won’t be seeing me for about 3 months give or take. I will probably be more absent than not from blogs as well, though, if I can sneak in a read here and there, I’ll do it. I just won’t be able to check out my favorite blogs as often or comment as often. It’s not forever, though, and, hopefully, I will use these 3 months well. My plan is to focus on things I’ve been putting off that require my full concentration right now so I can get something productive going in my life once again. With that in mind, the idea is to come back with a much better attitude and perspective. Maybe I’ll even be healthy by then.
In the meantime, I think I’ll take the advice of Mr. Bing Crosby and stop acting like a mule, pig, fish and monkey:
Either way, you have no idea how much I’ve enjoyed getting to know each of you and how much I’ve appreciated your support, creativity, humor, friendship and love! I’ve made some really good friends through the blogging community and I will miss you while I’m gone.
So, if you wake up one day and think ~ “Gee, I miss Wayward Sparkles,” feel free to check out some of my older blog posts that you might not be familiar with. If you go up to the Index at the top of the Wayward Sparkles page, click and then scroll through that, it will list the names of all of my posts going back from the very beginning of my blog. Just click on whatever you think might be interesting and it will take you to that post. I use my Index all of the time, btw, that’s what it’s there for.
Other than that, I highly recommend these other blog sites listed in alphabetical order. Again, click on their name and it will link you directly to their blog:
Awkwardly Alive and Pleasantly Peculiar
Boldly Going Forward…Because I Can’t Find Reverse
Knock, Knock, Knocking on Forty’s Door
With that my Wayward Friends, I feel like I’ve left you in the hands of some damned fine people who also just so happen to be freakin’ good bloggers! I hope that if you haven’t already checked these sites out, you will expand your world with these people and their unique perspectives and their amazing ways of expressing themselves! Please tell ’em I said hello when you visit! I know you will continue to love and support each other. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck with all of your endeavors, writing and otherwise! I can’t wait to see you again in June!
P.S. Is it just me or is it really weird that I’m not following any blogs that start with the letter “S” and after? Huh. I’ll have to remedy that when I get back. Also, if I left someone out inadvertently, I so apologize. Please let me know and I’ll make sure your blog gets on the list. Also, if you can share one or a few other blogs that you recommend in addition to what I’ve listed above as a way of expanding and giving a shout out to others in our blogging community, please feel free to do so in the comments section below! The more the merrier!
22 thoughts on “Riding the Struggle Bus”
I will miss you most horribly! But I understand. Take the time you need and come back refreshed, healthy and full of your usual quirky self.
And thanks for the shout out.
Hugs, Mona–can’t wait until you’re back:-)
Me either! Bunches of hugs back! 💖 Mona
Then I’ll have three months to catch up! You are now my guilty pleasure… have you ever been one before? Take the time. Get off that bus and leave the State of Denial. I will be checking out the blogs you mentioned! And thanks for recommending me! Wow. Very cool of you. You know what I think about unobtainable goals… they aren’t for me! Re-think that serenity prayer idea. See you in June! xo~k.
Kim, I agree with you about the unobtainable and The Serenity Prayer may prove exactly that–at least for me. I’ll be checking in with everyone on their sites as I can. I know that I continue to have much to learn from you! And I’m delighted that you find my site a guilty pleasure! You made my day! See you soon and lots of hugs, Mona
Thank you so much for the recommendation ❤️
I hope your time off is helpful and gives you a chance to feel restored and out of survival mode. I can’t wait to go back and read some older posts. Hang in there!
Thanks so much! I love your blog and I hope others get a chance to enjoy it, too! Mona
Well, shit. And I’m so proud of you for doing this for yourself. You know how to find me, friend.
Thank you, my friend!
Well, I’m proud of you for taking the bull by the horns and working on yourself for a while, distraction-free! But I’m going to miss you terribly, and your comments on my blog too! Let us know if you need anything, my friend!
Thanks Kat! I’ll be checking in here and there, just not as frequently! Mona
You have my cell # if you ever need me, frand!
Thanks Allen! Mona
Oh, I’ll miss you! June is so far away! But I really respect and acknowledge the need to do an online detox every once in a while. I hope you find what you need out there on the real world. 😘
Thank you for the shout out. Lots and lots of love! Too much love! Enough to weigh you down for months until you get back. Have a really nice relaxing time. Take ten minutes of you-time a day! ❤️
Oh, Sarah, your love does just the opposite of weighing me down — it makes me feel buoyant — and loved — and how could I ever stay gone from that for very long?! While I won’t be relaxing (as much as I might be tempted), there are just other things I have to tend to right now! However, I do like the idea of taking a few minutes each day to just breathe! I’ll be checking in on you now and then — just not as much as I normally do! Lots of love and hugs to you, my friend! Mona
I hope you get things figured out and enjoy your vacation from the internet! I’m almost a little jealous. Sometimes, I wish they would just push the Red Button of the Internet and delete the whole damn place. But, then I would miss everyone I’ve met but haven’t exchanged phone numbers with.
See you in June!
Adie, for me it’s the time-consuming part of blogging and social media that I’m needing to ease way back on. Once I’m on it or when I’m writing, it’s hard for me to turn away — I get hyperfocused and the next thing I know, the day is shot and nothing else I intended to get done — got done! David’s convinced I’m addicted. I don’t think that’s the case, but it is habit-forming and for me, immersive. Anyway, this past week has been productive and I’m hoping that this upcoming week goes well, too! I’ll still check in on you, it just won’t be as often. And anytime you’d like to talk, it doesn’t matter what time it is, email me at waywardsparkles.com and we can exchange phone numbers, especially in case the internet explodes or does something equally horrifying. I’ll be checking that account a couple of times a week (again, not as often) so give me at least 3-4 days before you give up on me! Please don’t give up on me! I love the Q&A vlog you did, btw! Very cool! Bunches of hugs, my friend! Mona
Oh Mona, I hope you get ever sorted. Will miss you. Big hugs my dear friend xx
I’m sorting. I’m sorting as fast as I can! Not gone but for a few months. I will continue to check in as often as I can, my friend! I look forward to reading more of your posts and appreciating your watercolors. Spring is just around the corner! Big hugs back to you, milk and cookies, too! Mona
I hope you find the peace and relief you’re needing. Sometimes a break is necessary to get things sorted out before we can get back on track. Take your time, and hope you’re making great progress. <3
Thanks so much! I’m getting heaps and heaps done at present, but it’s taking time. The good news is that I feel like I’m making progress on things that have been backburnered for a couple of years now and it just feels good to get stuff done! I’ll be checking on you and your bestest doggie Jett from time to time! Peace to you as well, Mona